Wow...it has been forever since I have blogged. I have had a couple of strange and discouraging weeks. It started with me getting sick the beginning of Revival week at our church. I always look forward to that as a time of refreshment and renewal, but I only made 2 of the services. It was that same week that Danielle first got sick. That went on for almost 2 weeks before she was finally hospitalized and properly diagnosed and treated. I have found myself so tired and overwhelmed by the entire situation. I am a "problem solver" and when we could not (even with the help of a doctor and/or medical tests) figure out what was wrong with Danielle over that time I found myself very frustrated and upset. I also like to be in control, as much as possible, and that was impossible as we kept finding ourselves at the mercy of the hospital and doctors schedules. I have also been having a stressful time at work. All of this compounded into me becoming fairly discouraged.
It was strange that at this time the LAST thing I found myself doing was praying or turning to the Lord. It was a classic example of not taking the time to do what would have been the most important thing that I should have been doing. During that time I wasn't focusing on the fact that the Master Physician, the Master Problem Solver was in control of the entire situation, even when I couldn't be. I thank God for reminders of his care and grace in the prayers, well wishes and help of family, true friends and brothers and sisters in Christ. What an encouragement. I think I will be better about visiting people in the hospital and calling when I know someone is going through a difficult time, especially the illness of a child/loved one.
Today in my devotion I read Psalm 119:105-107 "Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. I have sworn, and I will perform it, that I will keep thy righteous judgments. I am afflicted very much; quicken me, O Lord, according unto thy word". I am thankful that He was lighting my way. I am rebuked that I wasn't paying closer attention.
Forgive me, Lord.
About Me
- Julie Alexander
- Phenix City, Alabama, United States
- I have been called by God to serve Him through ministry to the orphan children of Africa! I have just started this journey! My prayer is that God will grant me wings so that I may swiftly arrive on the field! Please pray for his guiding!
